Post by Suzanne on May 25, 2005 4:24:33 GMT -5
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
John 10:10
My name is Suzanne St. Martin.~ I have 5 grown children and ten grandchildren.~ I can do nothing without Him.~ He is the Healer.~ I love Jesus with all my heart, and feel I have an anointing for a Healing Ministry.
About my healing gift. I think I was called from the beginning to it. All my life I have felt the call. When I was 12 I got the worlds worst case of poison oak and my entire body was covered in horrible oozing sores. When I would bend my arms or legs, the skin would crack open and bleed. My eyes were nearly swollen shut. I was a total mess. Mom took me to the Dr. who in those days didn't have a clue what to do.
I had been attending a very tiny Assembly of God church in Dixon, California and some times played my harmonica for them as they didn't have a piano player. I can remember understanding what people said when they were speaking in tongues. I just thought everyone could do that.
Anyway Mom decided to take me to church to a night service and have them pray for me. I couldn't even wear shoes that night, my condition was so bad. I had never seen anyone healed so I didn't have any expectations or didn't figure anything would happen execpt getting prayed for.
The lady Pastor called me up front and she and a few others anointed me with oil and said a very brief prayer. I didn't feel anything and later Mom and I went home. The next morning when I woke up, there was not any trace of the sores. Totally gone!! Praise God!!!
Over the years I have had several other healings, but none as spectacular as that one. I think the seed was planted for a healing ministry right then.
A few years ago I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. I was staying with my daughter, Vicki, at the time. One morning as she was leaving for work, she said, "Mom, there's a Bible Study in town. You should go to it." Well I ranked a Bible Study right up there with a baby shower, and I hate baby showers. I told her, "No way am I going to that Bible Study."
My daughter no sooner left than I got this overpowering desire to go to that Bible Study. In fact, it seemed I would die, if I didn't go. I called Vicki at work to find out where the Study was, and then got lost on the way and hurried to her place of work to get better directions.
When I finally got to the Bible Study, and walked in the door, you could have heard a pin drop. Women were seated on chairs and on the floor around Gayle, who was leading the Study.
Gayle spoke directly to me and said. "Anyone who hasn't received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, isn't leaving here without it." I thought, well, I guess I better get it then. Later, no one at the Study remembers Gayle saying this, and Gayle, herself couldn't remember saying it.
At the end of the Study, I asked Gayle for prayer for the Baptism. She said, "When I place my hands on your head, you will feel the hands of Jesus, not mine. I can tell you right now, that it was the hands of Jesus I felt on my head.
Everything is a little fuzzy from here on. I know I could barely drive home. I was laughing and crying so hard I could hardly stay on the road. My life was never the same after this.
Not long after, I would feel a burning and tingling in my hands when someone was being prayed for, for healing. I would get the urge to run up and lay hands on the person. The church I attended at that time (not the Assembly of God) didn't believe in just anyone laying on hands, so I would have to restrain myself. Sometimes, during this "holding back" I would feel a warm hand on my shoulder and several times I looked but no one was there. I believe now it was the Holy Spirit.
Not long after this I started crocheting dolls for the Sheriff's Dept. to hand out to kids who had been molested. I started getting the urge to pray over these dolls before they went out. Pretty soon I got reports back that when the dolls were given to the kids, who wouldn't tell what happened to them, the kids would tell everything and the molester would be punished.
Around this time I started getting a boldness in speaking the word to people and leading them to the Lord. This continued for some time. I realized that I didn't even know if my step-dad was saved. I went to his house and asked him if he was saved. He said, "I don't know." I then told him that at his age (in his 70's) he couldn't afford to dilly-dally around about these things. Anyway, we talked about it for a while and he allowed me to lead him to the Lord. All together that summer I led 13 people to the Lord.
The following year he passed away and his funeral was a Glorious thing. Pastor Paulette Blaylock, of Landmark Christian Center, in Porterville, California, conducted the service. People were getting saved and led to the Lord right in the funeral home.
Then I was led to a school of Prophetic and Apostolic study by my daughter, Vicki Blair, and I studied Prophetic and Apostolic teachings. That's another entire story. During the study, I would go into their chat room and many people would come in need. It was a wonderful time of being able to "practice" prophecy, discernment, intercession, receiving visions, and healing.
Sometime later, Jesus appeared at the foot of my bed and handed me a golden Scepter. This I believe was the beginning of my Apostolic training. I would feel the anointing come on me again, only this time it started getting so strong, I felt I would burst if I didn't release it. Pretty soon I could feel the anointing come on me as soon as I would think about going into the chat room. I learned the anointing could be released even over the net and from a distance.
During this wonderful learning and studying time, everything else in my life fell to pieces. I lost friends and even family. Lost my dwelling. My income. I doubted my sanity many times, but continued to seek with all my heart. Anyone who has gone thru this dying and cleaning out that the Lord does, knows what I'm talking about. It was probably one of the most painful things I've had to go through. I think if I had just climbed up on the cross and let it all go it would have been faster and easier, but I had to hang on and fight and cry and it nearly did me in.
When I look back on all of this I can see all the filth and junk and garbage that had to go. God wants a clean vessel to fill and use. But, I don't want you to think you have to be a clean vessel for the Lord to start using you. He will use you as you are when you come to Him, and He will take care of the cleaning out.
Well, I did survive as you can see, and was ordained in November. I did come through it all and love Jesus with all my heart. I don't want you to think that this is the end of the story. It's not. I don't think the Lord is ever done cleaning out. As we continue to grow and reach a closer relationship with Him, we have to be prepared to be reprimanded and molded and refined by His loving hand. It's an on going process.
I would like to stress right here the importance of coming into the Lord's Presence. Use every chance you have to praise, worship and just plain talk to Him. Develop a relationship now, as the time is soon coming when you will only have knowing the Father's Heart to carry you through. God Bless You.
John 10:10
My name is Suzanne St. Martin.~ I have 5 grown children and ten grandchildren.~ I can do nothing without Him.~ He is the Healer.~ I love Jesus with all my heart, and feel I have an anointing for a Healing Ministry.
About my healing gift. I think I was called from the beginning to it. All my life I have felt the call. When I was 12 I got the worlds worst case of poison oak and my entire body was covered in horrible oozing sores. When I would bend my arms or legs, the skin would crack open and bleed. My eyes were nearly swollen shut. I was a total mess. Mom took me to the Dr. who in those days didn't have a clue what to do.
I had been attending a very tiny Assembly of God church in Dixon, California and some times played my harmonica for them as they didn't have a piano player. I can remember understanding what people said when they were speaking in tongues. I just thought everyone could do that.
Anyway Mom decided to take me to church to a night service and have them pray for me. I couldn't even wear shoes that night, my condition was so bad. I had never seen anyone healed so I didn't have any expectations or didn't figure anything would happen execpt getting prayed for.
The lady Pastor called me up front and she and a few others anointed me with oil and said a very brief prayer. I didn't feel anything and later Mom and I went home. The next morning when I woke up, there was not any trace of the sores. Totally gone!! Praise God!!!
Over the years I have had several other healings, but none as spectacular as that one. I think the seed was planted for a healing ministry right then.
A few years ago I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. I was staying with my daughter, Vicki, at the time. One morning as she was leaving for work, she said, "Mom, there's a Bible Study in town. You should go to it." Well I ranked a Bible Study right up there with a baby shower, and I hate baby showers. I told her, "No way am I going to that Bible Study."
My daughter no sooner left than I got this overpowering desire to go to that Bible Study. In fact, it seemed I would die, if I didn't go. I called Vicki at work to find out where the Study was, and then got lost on the way and hurried to her place of work to get better directions.
When I finally got to the Bible Study, and walked in the door, you could have heard a pin drop. Women were seated on chairs and on the floor around Gayle, who was leading the Study.
Gayle spoke directly to me and said. "Anyone who hasn't received the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, isn't leaving here without it." I thought, well, I guess I better get it then. Later, no one at the Study remembers Gayle saying this, and Gayle, herself couldn't remember saying it.
At the end of the Study, I asked Gayle for prayer for the Baptism. She said, "When I place my hands on your head, you will feel the hands of Jesus, not mine. I can tell you right now, that it was the hands of Jesus I felt on my head.
Everything is a little fuzzy from here on. I know I could barely drive home. I was laughing and crying so hard I could hardly stay on the road. My life was never the same after this.
Not long after, I would feel a burning and tingling in my hands when someone was being prayed for, for healing. I would get the urge to run up and lay hands on the person. The church I attended at that time (not the Assembly of God) didn't believe in just anyone laying on hands, so I would have to restrain myself. Sometimes, during this "holding back" I would feel a warm hand on my shoulder and several times I looked but no one was there. I believe now it was the Holy Spirit.
Not long after this I started crocheting dolls for the Sheriff's Dept. to hand out to kids who had been molested. I started getting the urge to pray over these dolls before they went out. Pretty soon I got reports back that when the dolls were given to the kids, who wouldn't tell what happened to them, the kids would tell everything and the molester would be punished.
Around this time I started getting a boldness in speaking the word to people and leading them to the Lord. This continued for some time. I realized that I didn't even know if my step-dad was saved. I went to his house and asked him if he was saved. He said, "I don't know." I then told him that at his age (in his 70's) he couldn't afford to dilly-dally around about these things. Anyway, we talked about it for a while and he allowed me to lead him to the Lord. All together that summer I led 13 people to the Lord.
The following year he passed away and his funeral was a Glorious thing. Pastor Paulette Blaylock, of Landmark Christian Center, in Porterville, California, conducted the service. People were getting saved and led to the Lord right in the funeral home.
Then I was led to a school of Prophetic and Apostolic study by my daughter, Vicki Blair, and I studied Prophetic and Apostolic teachings. That's another entire story. During the study, I would go into their chat room and many people would come in need. It was a wonderful time of being able to "practice" prophecy, discernment, intercession, receiving visions, and healing.
Sometime later, Jesus appeared at the foot of my bed and handed me a golden Scepter. This I believe was the beginning of my Apostolic training. I would feel the anointing come on me again, only this time it started getting so strong, I felt I would burst if I didn't release it. Pretty soon I could feel the anointing come on me as soon as I would think about going into the chat room. I learned the anointing could be released even over the net and from a distance.
During this wonderful learning and studying time, everything else in my life fell to pieces. I lost friends and even family. Lost my dwelling. My income. I doubted my sanity many times, but continued to seek with all my heart. Anyone who has gone thru this dying and cleaning out that the Lord does, knows what I'm talking about. It was probably one of the most painful things I've had to go through. I think if I had just climbed up on the cross and let it all go it would have been faster and easier, but I had to hang on and fight and cry and it nearly did me in.
When I look back on all of this I can see all the filth and junk and garbage that had to go. God wants a clean vessel to fill and use. But, I don't want you to think you have to be a clean vessel for the Lord to start using you. He will use you as you are when you come to Him, and He will take care of the cleaning out.
Well, I did survive as you can see, and was ordained in November. I did come through it all and love Jesus with all my heart. I don't want you to think that this is the end of the story. It's not. I don't think the Lord is ever done cleaning out. As we continue to grow and reach a closer relationship with Him, we have to be prepared to be reprimanded and molded and refined by His loving hand. It's an on going process.
I would like to stress right here the importance of coming into the Lord's Presence. Use every chance you have to praise, worship and just plain talk to Him. Develop a relationship now, as the time is soon coming when you will only have knowing the Father's Heart to carry you through. God Bless You.